Before Decade Ends;

No more shit.

It has been a hell of a year, but honestly it has been a great one. This year made me understand how life can truly be a bitch but that you can find strength in the littlest of things. It is the end of a decade, the end of an era. Next year we'll have different paths, different lives but we still stay the same. We as individuals will stay us no matter how much we change. Keeping that in mind, we're young and let's have some fun. =)

Castle Walls

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Observing the estate through the gate from the outside looking in
Bet you would think I got it made, better look again
I got buttler, got a maid, and a mansion
The belief is that I'm living out a millionaires fantasy
With pantoms and ferrari's in the driveway
But you see the pain and the change of the same man's
Your vision jaded by the grammy's on the mantelpiece
Just switch your camera lenses you would see the agony
Apparantly it's damaging the man you see before you
On the canvas he may seem alright but all the diasadvantages his family
Encounters overpowers his extravagance
Walk in my? I dare you
While it really seem like the kings life aint glamourous
As seen through the eyes of untrained amateurs
Because the camera's don't see beyond the walls of the smiles
Only counts until it falls in the pile

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Honestly to me, I think I'd lose every benefit of all that I've accomplished
If my key is never with it, shit
Me knowing this, why should the verses I have laid
Be more important to me than the persons I have raised
I guess I'm saying that to say that ooportunity
But they just don't equate to all the time they take away
From the kids all the shit I did right is a mistake
If deyjah end up a stripper and major slinging yay
How could I ever consider myself a great
If messiah ain't paid and nique nique ain't straight
Would your favourite song about the whips, money and shit
Be relevant if you found out, the money wasn't real, nope
So me being the goat shouldn't mean more to me
Than see it to a king though
From a bad ass kid to man with some dough
Otherwise I may well have stayed poor
So while they stay focused on me beefin with flip,
Shawty low, gucci or ludacris
Or if I'm fucking with a hoe
Did I snitch when I got arrested or will I die over nonesense
Internally I'm dealing with this conflict
So excuse me if I don't get the chance to kiss the hand
Or slap me in the face, ay I, m just the man
If they saying I ain't the best at making hit records
It's cause this my life these ain't just rapping
Shit, you think of that deep, did ya dawg
See you can't see the castle through the walls till it falls
Bitch ain't thinking with the deep, did ya dog
Cause see you can't see the castle through the walls till it falls

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Nobody knows I'm all alone,
Living in this castle made of stone.
They say that money is freedom

but I feel trapped inside it all.

And while I sit so high up on a throne,
I wonder how I can feel this low.
On top of the world it's beautiful,
But there's no place to fall.

For the record ay, I give a damn if I never said shit again
My career was meant for me to come and tell it
Honest interpretation of how affected I'm faced with
Matters most rappers used to keep locked away in the basement
The day that I walk I ain't saying that I'm amazing
Down playing the way I keep fellas from catching cases
Won't take into consideration how much it mean what I'm saying
And when I say what I mean even when I'm sorrounded by the fakers
From one of the greatest centers, blessed with most of god's graces
Who made his way amongst the greatest from the grimiest places
So next time you rating royalty, I'm always being given to recordings than the level
Of your loyalty, obvious you've been ignoring me
Who else ya seen make it through the storm, unharmed disjointed
While all the critics was looking for prince charming
Disregarded the king of the south raised doubt
Even though he made a castle out of used to be a house
He did shit that all your favourites rappers only rap about
But most of y'all don't see the castle through the walls
And the smiles till it falls in piles so while...

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Everyone thinks that I have it all,

But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Observing the estate through the gate from the outside looking in
Bet you would think I got it made, better look again
I got buttler, got a maid, and a mansion
The belief is that I'm living out a millionaires fantasy
With pantoms and ferrari's in the driveway
But you see the pain and the change of the same man's
Your vision jaded by the grammy's on the mantelpiece
Just switch your camera lenses you would see the agony
Apparantly it's damaging the man you see before you
On the canvas he may seem alright but all the diasadvantages his family
Encounters overpowers his extravagance
Walk in my? I dare you
While it really seem like the kings life aint glamourous
As seen through the eyes of untrained amateurs
Because the camera's don't see beyond the walls of the smiles
Only counts until it falls in the pile

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Honestly to me, I think I'd lose every benefit of all that I've accomplished
If my key is never with it, shit
Me knowing this, why should the verses I have laid
Be more important to me than the persons I have raised
I guess I'm saying that to say that ooportunity
But they just don't equate to all the time they take away
From the kids all the shit I did right is a mistake
If deyjah end up a stripper and major slinging yay
How could I ever consider myself a great
If messiah ain't paid and nique nique ain't straight
Would your favourite song about the whips, money and shit
Be relevant if you found out, the money wasn't real, nope
So me being the goat shouldn't mean more to me
Than see it to a king though
From a bad ass kid to man with some dough
Otherwise I may well have stayed poor
So while they stay focused on me beefin with flip,
Shawty low, gucci or ludacris
Or if I'm fucking with a hoe
Did I snitch when I got arrested or will I die over nonesense
Internally I'm dealing with this conflict
So excuse me if I don't get the chance to kiss the hand
Or slap me in the face, ay I, m just the man
If they saying I ain't the best at making hit records
It's cause this my life these ain't just rapping
Shit, you think of that deep, did ya dawg
See you can't see the castle through the walls till it falls
Bitch ain't thinking with the deep, did ya dog
Cause see you can't see the castle through the walls till it falls

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

Nobody knows I'm all alone,
Living in this castle made of stone.
They say that money is freedom

but I feel trapped inside it all.

And while I sit so high up on a throne,
I wonder how I can feel this low.
On top of the world it's beautiful,
But there's no place to fall.

For the record ay, I give a damn if I never said shit again
My career was meant for me to come and tell it
Honest interpretation of how affected I'm faced with
Matters most rappers used to keep locked away in the basement
The day that I walk I ain't saying that I'm amazing
Down playing the way I keep fellas from catching cases
Won't take into consideration how much it mean what I'm saying
And when I say what I mean even when I'm sorrounded by the fakers
From one of the greatest centers, blessed with most of god's graces
Who made his way amongst the greatest from the grimiest places
So next time you rating royalty, I'm always being given to recordings than the level
Of your loyalty, obvious you've been ignoring me
Who else ya seen make it through the storm, unharmed disjointed
While all the critics was looking for prince charming
Disregarded the king of the south raised doubt
Even though he made a castle out of used to be a house
He did shit that all your favourites rappers only rap about
But most of y'all don't see the castle through the walls
And the smiles till it falls in piles so while...

Everyone thinks that I have it all,
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls;
These castle walls.
If I should tumble if I should fall,
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls.
There's no one here at all,

Behind these castle walls.

10 Warriors

Now "Chain of Fools" and "Respect"

Was the Anthem of a woman Aretha said.

I feel an odd comfort knowing that here, I am alone. I shall tell a story because I feel obligated to do it here.

We had all been good friends for about a year. But we started to see this other side of him. Honestly, we felt annoyed. Irritated at his childish ways. And slowly began to pull away from him. Sadly, at the same time, he was in love with a friend of ours. His denial at this obvious fact strained our friendship even more so to the point where he became aware of it. Of course we talked it out, but this was far from over.

We still fell apart. We held him so close to our hearts. The thing is another guy was also in love with the aforementioned friend and as mean as it was, I rooted for this guy. Both guys were my friends but I just did. Was this betrayal? But on April 16, it was the end. We put up one last show and it was understood that everything was gone.

After that I thought it was over but it wasn't. He would play tricks and lay traps so that we wouldn't get certain opportunities on things that we loved. Is this giving us a taste of our own medicine? Was this payback for not supporting him on something he wouldn't admit to?

Half a year had past and I went to see the little idiots, who were arguing. We decided to tell them about the horrid road we took. We wanted them to learn from our mistakes and not follow in our footsteps. Just give them advice and not for them to butt in into our unresolved conflict.

Of course they did which makes everything messy again. The things is, the guy thinks we told the juniors to gossip about him, somehow making us hypocrites and liars.

The thing is, I'm so tired of all of it. I'm so tired of the animosity and mistrust. Honestly, I just want to put everything behind us so that we could all be happy again. I want to apologise because of the lack of effort in trying to make the friendship work. But at the same time, I don't know what would happen.

Thank You

Hey this is Shane Gerosi.

You're a classy and honest woman;

Both naughty and nice;

Ravishing;

Impressive;

Seductive and Sexy.

Christina, thank you so much.

Please never stop.